How do I get through Christmas? I feel like I'm walking though a mine field. Last I was ambushed by "Charlie Brown's Christmas" I remember when it first came out. It was 1965 and it was the first Christmas after my Dad died. My Mom did such a wonderful job making Christmas special for me. I remember all of the presents that she got for me that year. All of the decorations at the house where we'd moved. It was hard, but it was really great. It hurt so bad seeing that show on TV. The memories were so vivid and fresh, it was almost like a flashback. It made me miss her even more. How can I go about the plans and shopping that I need to do for everyone, when she would have been shopping with me? And I already had some things for her for Christmas, and her birthday on December 20th... I'd already bought birthday cards for her. How do I go to church on Christmas eve when it's so hard just to get through a regular Sunday without her there with us? I'm so very tired. Achy. I know that it's all a part of grief. And I know that this is something that I just have to feel and let be until it becomes easier to live with. But for now it becomes harder and harder as the Christmas season gets closer. I wish I could just hibernate until some time in January!